Again a find myself almost year later, randomly checking in on my ‘blog’ and realising/remembering about what I seem to be so bad at maintaining.
I also just re-read my post from that time and there was a few questions/comments about my then most recent trip to Malaysia, the first since my uncle passed in 2013.
This will be brief to answer this one interestingly accurate statement from this post When “Memory Lane” really might just be imaginary in 2015.
So when you memories don’t seem to stack up to memory lane, is it the place that’s changed or just what happens when things just aren’t the same anymore?
My most recent trip in March was a special request from my mum, we just went back for a snap family reunion of sorts – her mum is turning 90 this year, (a momentous milestone age for someone of any generation but I’ll talk about my grandma in another post, hopefully sometime soon – she’s worth it) and we managed to organise this only in January.
This trip was a mixed bag for me, here was what was different:
- I got to meet a cousin who married with two kids, and left Malaysia around the same time as I did, I have no memories of him.
- I got to see his sister which I haven’t seen in 14+ years, she’s also married with two kids.
- I got to other cousins I hardly talked to, ever. And even in my most recent trips, I hadn’t seen them then.
- Oh and their respective partners and children.
- I was there with BOTH my parents, and I haven’t been in Malaysia with them since I left.
It was all a overwhelming, now that I think back on it.
Back to my original reason for reflecting – memory lane. It’s weird that as I inch closer to another milestone year for myself (the big 3-0), I’ve started to really think back to how adult life is still in it’s own infancy of sorts. As a child, I would have been oblivious to all of the little factors of this trip – something I saw in my nephews.
Adult life, right? Things really change so quickly, sometimes suddenly.
You start to realise where your memories fall in your life, they were different not just because of the people, the place but because of how old you were at the time, your perception of them and how awesome they were ‘back then.”
I’m still so young in many people’s eyes, but I’m jaded in many ways or two. Things just don’t fly by me anymore, I’m a cynic and not proud of it but I accept it.
Let’s just hope I can still see the greatness in some of my more recent good memories, 20 years from now.